Monday, June 23, 2014

Piggy Banks in Your Belly

Selah: "Why doesn't everyone believe in Jesus?"

Me: "Well, some have never heard of Him. And some have been told that He's not real."

Selah, after pausing and thinking for a moment... "And they believe that?"

Me: "Well, deep down inside I think they know, but they've decided to say that He's not."

Selah thinks for a moment, then nods her head... "Yeah, I think so. Sometimes it's stuck in your belly...down in your piggy bank inside. And you just have to pull the know out of your piggy bank where all the memories live."

How is it that our six year old can verbalize something I've never been able to put into words? Maybe because she hasn't been out of that realm for very long... she's only been here on assignment for six years now.

So...I guess I needed to hear that. Maybe it's time for me to stop and remember where I came from... remember Who we originated from... Who now lives and creates miracles in and through us. Maybe we need to listen more to the "knowing" that is immersed in our very DNA. We have more power in our little fingers, more strength in our spirits, and more knowing deep in our "piggy banks" than we're willing to acknowledge. And by that unwillingness, we suppress Him. What if we lived remembering why we were sent here? How about if we all rose up a little taller, a little more confident in how fabulous we are (and He is in us) and how phenomenal our mission here is? Wow... :)

Saturday, May 24, 2014

Homeschool Mom Graduate

Ok, so I just finished my first year as a home school mom.

Good night...What an education! I went through all the subjects... Ignorance. Naivety. Excitement. Syllabus shock. Overwhelm. Irritation. Determination. Exhaustion. Self-loathing. Neglect. Re-calibration. Acceptance. Self-appreciation. Enjoyment. Gratitude. (Whew....)

Had no idea it would be such a growing space for me. My daughter was a great teacher. Patient, forgiving, loving... but willing to push me in areas I needed growth. She was so well equipped to handle my particular form of self-centeredness. She really stretched me, and then gave me the grace I needed to move higher.

And now I've finally graduated. Wow... I made it. Can hardly believe I made it. And my daughter survived, too! In fact... she wants to do it again. **Deep breath.** Wow. Ok. Cool... I do, too. :)

Saturday, April 26, 2014

The 2014 Kung Fu Disaster

Sometimes it takes a little creativity to get the house cleaned. I don't usually have any. The faster, the better. The more efficient, the better. And all those other boring ways of picking up. "Won't it look great when you're done, girls??" Just get it done. Now.

Well, today I used some spur of the moment props and a live action camera... and waddaya know. Instant motivation. Fifteen minutes and they were done. AND it was fun. Sheesh. So need to think like this more often.

Friday, April 11, 2014

Worship Isn't A Song

Worship isn't a song, a tempo, or a sound. And it's not an activity that we participate in every seven days. Those community gatherings (that we often refer to as "worship") are auditory articulation... the verbal and physical expressions of something more. Something intangible and deeply felt in the heart.

We can often place more focus on the symptoms of an illness, than on the actual illness. "She has a fever." So we take her temperature often, administer helpful remedies to reduce the fever, and try to make her feel cooler. We are relieved when the fever dissipates. All focus was on the fever... what temp it was, how long it lasted, what it looked like... not what actually caused the fever.

The fever was just a symptom...the body's outward response to an internal state. In the same way, the expression of worship is an outward symptom of our internal state of adoration. The true worship is our inner, innate response to a growing understanding of His deep love for us, and our appreciation for that love.

When that inner adoration is expressed outwardly, it doesn't have to look or sound a certain way. It can come out in thousands of ways. Like appreciating the smell of a flower He made, caring for a loved one He created, deciding to maintain your integrity in a sketchy situation out of your reverence for His presence with you, whispering to Him a "thank you", helping others when it's inconvenient because those people belong to Him, or improving yourself because you know His plans are waiting on you. All are outward demonstrations of an inner love.

But all these outward expressions of inner worship do have a certain feel to them. They feel like adoration. So instead of getting hung up on what our expression of worship looks like, let's focus on the state of our inner heart toward Him. And then the expression of that adoration will flow easily and come out in a multitude of forms.

Friday, October 18, 2013

Statements That I Never Thought Would Come Out Of My Mouth

1. "Get your foot out of your sister's mouth!" (Said to Selah regarding Aliyah.)

I've decided to start a list. I'm sure anyone with children can relate. Here are the first six... all said within the last two years.

2. "For the umpteenth time, stop eating dog food!" (Said to both Moriah and Aliyah.)

Selah is almost 6, Moriah is 4, and Aliyah is 19 months. 

3. "How did you get your hair tangled in the toilet bowl brush?!" (To Aliyah.)

4. "You were sucking on a chunk of broken glass!?" (To Aliyah as I pulled it out of her mouth.)

5. "You found a penny AND a hair tie in her poop?!" (To Kenneth about Aliyah.)

6. "Why did you let your little sister drop rocks in the toilet WHILE you were pooping in it?!?" (To Moriah. Guess who had to fish those out?? Yep.)

I have a suspicion that there will be more to come.

Monday, October 22, 2012

"Ok, God. I will."

 I was shocked at the language my three year old had just used. Moriah!? This is the girl who argues with everything. Just because she can.

“Moriah, you are so beautiful.”  “No, I’m not.” (Completely confident in her denial.)
“Moriah, you are very smart.”  “Noooo! I’m not. (Emphatically shaking her head.)
“Moriah, we’re having eggs for lunch.”  “NO! I don’t want dat.” (Brows furrowed and voice raised.)

So, when I told her to get in her seat so she could eat lunch, I was literally shocked by her response.

“Ok, Mom. I will.” (Head tilted, sing song voice, smiling sweetly.) And. She. Climbed. Up. Into. Her. Seat.

I stared at her. Then caught myself, and started uproariously praising her for her good attitude. What in the world had happened?! Had all my hard discipline work and constant verbal correction paid off?? Had I finally broken down the wall of brick wall of opposition!?? I nearly wanted to scream for joy!

As lunch was nearing its messy end, I brought it up again (didn’t want to lose momentum, you know).  

“So, Moriah. Do you remember that thing that you did a while ago? You know… when I asked you to do something and you said, ‘Ok, Mom. I will.’?” I tried my best to duplicate the cutsie voice she had used.

“Yeeeaaaahhhh.” She looked at me out of the corner of her eyes, hovering over her bowl, her mouth covered with food.

“Well, that was AWESOME.” (More uproarious praise. Big smiley face so she can see how much awesomeness it was.) I was so impressed with you! You didn’t argue, you didn’t complain, you didn’t cry, you didn’t pretend that you were incapable of climbing into the seat or that you didn’t know how to feed yourself or that you couldn’t hold a fork or that suddenly your leg hurt or that you had to go to the bathroom… (oh yes, she may be just three but her creativity in how she chooses to disobey is astonishing)… you just obeyed Mommy with a GOOD ATTITUDE!!” (Another ridiculously large smiley face and exaggerated mommy-head-nod.)

She smiled, pleased with herself, and began to repeat the phrase over and over again. “Ok, Mom. I will. (Big smile.) Like dat? Ok, Mom. I will. Mom, are you sooo impessed wif me? Are you so pwoud of me? Ok, Mom. I will.”

I assured her that I was truly impressed. It felt like it was the first time that she had ever voluntarily agreed to happily do something that she always fought me on. And the relief of not having to “wage war” was like instant sweetness to me. It made my day. I was so happy that she had voluntarily and happily obeyed the first time that I also gave her some of what she really wanted to eat.  And I think she even surprised herself when she found out how good her quick obedience made her feel.

I was thinking about it later that day when I heard a soft voice in my spirit say, “That’s how it feels.” And it occurred to me that the Lord must feel such a sweet joy when we obey instantly and happily. How many hidden blessings have we missed because we argued or wrestled with what He wanted us to do… only to be forced to give in finally. There’s a lack of peace until the decision to obey has finally been made. We feel frustrated…maybe a little ashamed that we didn’t do it earlier.  We were “waging war” against Him and didn’t even realize it.

So, how beautiful would it be... if, the instant He asked, we said, “Ok, God. I will.”? (Head tilt and sing song voice are optional.)

Friday, June 29, 2012

Wasteful Spending

No, I will not be watching "Magic Mike" or reading "50 Shades of Grey" with my girlfriends. But not because some consider it to be unGodly.

I won't spend my (valuable) time absorbing those images and ideas because I'm actually intentionally going somewhere with my husband... I'm building something with him.

I understand how undermining and eroding sexual images can be to the intimacy in a marriage. Those images and ideas stick for years and become something that you have to wrestle through in your daily life. Why would I intentionally allow something into my life that damages what I'm trying to do? And I'd actually have to spend $10 to do it!? Ha! No, I'm not interested in self-destruction.

I AM interested in building a strong, powerful, intimate relationship with my best friend... a relationship that provides a secure foundation for our children, and a relationship that pursues and accomplishes the fantastic purposes that God has orchestrated for us.

Nope, not interested in wasting my time or my resources when there's so many more truly incredible things to do. I understand that the NBA championship was a huge win for LeBron, Dwyane and the Heat team... but popping a $75,000 bottle of champagne to celebrate, when there is so much hunger, thirst, and need in our world is just obscene.

Wake up, people! Our lives, resources, and time are not to be wasted on self-destructive, wasteful things. We each have a deep and thrilling purpose to pursue and accomplish...that, if we all begin to pursue, will change the face of this earth. So, let's stop all the foolishness and get to work.

P.S. To those who are flirting with the idea of reading the book or watching the movie because you're curious or because other you know are doing so... (I'm betting that spending $75,000 on some bubbly doesn't have quite the same lure for you)... my question for you is, Where are you going in your life? ...What are you trying to accomplish? If doing those things mentioned above hinders you at all, then why are you wasting your time considering them??