Thursday, September 6, 2007

I Don't Know What To Tell You

I'm sitting here at my desk staring at the lights blinking on my Internet modem box. I don't know whether they are just really captivating.. the yellow-green neon dots flickering on and off really are quite hypnotising... or if I'm just that tired. But I continue to stare because I don't know what to tell you.

Should I tell you that my belly has started to grow higher up, making my stomach and my bladder complain? Tomorrow I'll be 18 weeks... that's 4 and a half months for non-baby-week counters. I'm wearing early maternity pants all the time right now, but if I stand up really straight it just looks like I've had too many beers and grown a beer belly. I find myself sticking my belly out in public just to try and prove that someone lives there and it's not just a new fat storage area.

Do you want to know that we now have someone living with us? Kenneth's guardian mother's sister's son. ... yes, read that again--it confused me too. (My brain isn't what it used to be--the baby's started sharing.) Nick is basically Kenneth's cousin (but not). (See, I didn't know if this was worth telling you or not.) He's here for a year or so for Golf Academy. God told us when He gave us this home that it would be used to bless people... funny how God always turns our right. For those of you who have been to the Clark home, he's staying in the Africa room. The Asia room will become the nursery. :)

I don't know if you want to know but I just like seeing in print the whole statement that this is Kenneth's LAST week traveling for a while. He goes live as a Financial Specialist for Wachovia on Monday. And I get my husband back at home.

Would you care to know I've been writing music?--amidst everything else. We worship to 6 or 7 of "my" songs regularly at The Well. (They're really God's songs.) Did you know there's a room in Heaven where worship is sung and played 24/7? They all are happening at the same time, interchangeably and they all harmonize perfectly together as they create this ever-changing, constantly moving tapestry of harmony and praise. It changes as different songs are blended in and out.. some we know, some haven't been written yet. It's gorgeous. You should go there and listen some time. (I promise... it's true...that's not the blinking lights talking.)

I have a dozen other random thoughts running through my mind, but there's isn't much that really seems worthwhile telling you--other than the worship thing. I'm tired. I'm pregnant. I miss my husband. But I live for the thought that I'll learn more about God every day. That's really all... other than that, I can't think of anything you'd want to know about.

"As John 4:23 says, Its time, as worshipers of God, to give him all we have. For when he is exalted, everything about me is decreased. So many times we stand in the way of really stepping into the secret place of worship with God. Just abandon tradition and the "expected" ways of Praise & Worship and get lost in the holy of holies with the sole intention of blessing the Fathers heart." ~Jessica Leah Springer


Anonymous said...

ok let's see the belly! :) I'll share mine in a few weeks - right now it looks like "Olivia leftovers"'s that for attractive? :) Talk about proving there's someone living in there!!! When do you find out if you're having a boy or a girl?

Hope Clark said...

Ha! :) We find out if we are having a boy or girl next Friday, the 21st. I think we're having a boy, but we'll see. How are you doing? Hope all is well. Yes, I really need to put up some pics. First I need to take some pics... Hmmm... maybe I should have been doing that all along...

melissa said...

i love that you're writing songs... i'd love to hear some of your songs... and i love that i got to hug your neck when you were out this way...

can't wait to meet your little punkin!

Bimi said...

Mrs. Hope, I miss mr. Kenneth too, only not nearly as much as you. I am praying for you guys! (Nick included)