Wednesday, April 30, 2008
I'm really beginning to enjoy her now. It took me about 7 or 8 weeks to really recover emotionally from the birth. Now she's three months and becoming a lot more interactive--and more fun. I still don't feel like a "mom", but hey, how do you know what that feels like? I still can't get over how much longer it takes to do everything--even a simple trip to the grocery store, or planning to call someone "right back." At first I would get frustrated because I'm so focused and accomplishment driven. I'm starting to learn that my drive is a handicap as much as it is a blessing. We were reading earlier in "Deadly Viper Character Assassins" about the assassin of the Headless Sprinting Chicken. I'm learning that balance is bunk. Trying to do everything and be everything is impossible and unhealthy. But apathy is not an option. It's important to me to take advantage of every day, and not let opportunities to learn, grow, change, clean up, etc pass by. Wisdom knows the difference. And Selah has helped me knock that assassin down a notch or two. She has certainly taught me to stop and spend more time on the 1st priority things... and let all the 2nd priority things pile up in the sink.